by Reb Akiva @ Mystical Paths
At 70 pounds overweight and completely sedentary, I’ve given up. There is nothing I can do. I already eat healthy. But the medical complications have been building up until I’m no longer fully functional. And the worries of reaching the point of being non-functional, not able to work or go to synagogue – very very real. I've upped my life insurance and health coverage, I'm only middle aged but it seems only a matter of time. I'm resigned, hopefully something will take me out quick before the compounding health symptoms fully disable me.
The doctor yells at me. We try an appetite suppressant, very expensive, no affect. He says maybe stomach banding surgery, a co-worker had it and it failed after 9 months. Doesn't seem like a good options. Besides, I'm not THAT overweight. (Yes this is contradictory from the paragraph above, who said feelings make sense.)
A month ago there was an article in the Ami magazine reviewing a book called Year Of No Sugar. Accompanying that review was an article about a fellow in similar shape to me who’s blood sugars spiked destroying his kidneys. My age, my health status, on his death bed surviving (barely) via dialysis.
My blood sugar has been creeping up, my negative symptoms increasing in intensity in line with increasing weight. 250 pounds, the heaviest I’ve been in my life. Not only could it be me, EVERY SYMPTOM HE DESCRIBED I HAVE! I broke into a cold sweat on Shabbos, maybe it is me! Maybe it’s too late and I just don’t know it yet!!!
...to be continued.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
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