by Reb Gutman Locks @ Mystical Paths
A Reader wrote:
I follow your blog, and just want to say a BIG thank you for bringing me closer to my Creator. Your writing is beautiful.
My parents are both Jewish, but not religious. I live in Moscow, and I'm 31. I used to live in New York when I was a teenager and studied at Nefesh Academy Jewish school. I am very proud of that because now I know about my religion, although now, that I'm in Russia, it’s hard to keep mitzvahs. There are no more teachers that used to support me.
I'm very happy to read your blog. I wish someday I could call myself a real Jew with a pure Neshamah (soul). Thank you for everything.
Thank you for your very nice letter.
Do not worry. Things are not as dark as they may seem. You are a real Jew. There are no half Jews. Every morning we say, "The soul you have given me is pure." Your soul is absolutely pure. Do not sell yourself short.
When a Jew allows his animal soul to sin, even after that sin that soul is still a portion of Hashem from the Highest that is temporarily housed in an earthly body. But now, because of that sin, the person has allowed a veil to come upon his holy soul. This makes it harder for his holy inclination to successfully influence his animal inclination. This means that the next sin becomes even easier than the last one! Yikes!! With each additional sin comes an additional veil, until life gets very dark. It becomes hard to see out into the wonderful world that G-d has given us, and it becomes hard for the world to see the holiness that dwells within us.
But…, if that soul can urge its animal inclination to behave itself, and to even do mitzvahs, then those veils will begin to melt away. With each mitzvah, another veil melts away, until finally, the pure soul shines again :~)
If you will try to help other Jews to do mitzvahs, or have them come to your Shabbos table for dinner, you will begin to feel more fulfilled.
Hashem bless you to find the proper Jewish mate so you will be able to make a large, happy, healthy, family.
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Reb Akiva adds:
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