by Reb Akiva at Mystical Paths
It might sound ridiculous, but many have trouble accepting a bracha (blessing). Not with hearing a tzaddik give the bracha, but with receipt of the actual bracha...
A person has been out of work for an extended period of time. Though reasonably qualified, they've been turned down for tens of jobs. They get a bracha and suddenly a day later get a call from one of the places they interviewed to say "we're interested, we'd like you to come in for an offer today"...
They can't believe it. They're suddenly not sure they're really qualified for the job. They're worried it won't work out. They're not sure they'll be able to get back into the swing of things.
This is a natural human reaction, but it's also a defect in one's emunah and counter productive to the bracha! It sounds like a cliche', but have a little faith! In yourself, in chachomos tzaddikim, and in Hashem! You may not feel deserving, but He's the True Judge.
A couple has been married for 7 years without children. They've prayed, gone to the doctors, and visited holy sites. After much trouble they secure a meeting with a tzaddik and receive a bracha for children. A few months later the wife discovers she's pregnant. Suddenly they're fearful, practically terrified. Will the pregnancy go ok, will the child be born healthy and normal, will the wife be able to handle childbirth, will they be decent parents.
Again, a normal reaction. But in this case not only a defect but actually damaging to reality. Have some faith, the gates of heaven are always open to prayer, tears and fulfilling the words of the tzaddikim. Doors that Hashem has closed He can't open? Roles you thought were out of reach have suddenly been provided? Thank Hashem and trust that He knows the right thing.
BS"D - בסיעתא דשמיא