by Reb Nati at Mystical Paths
This is an excerpt from a new book by Bresslov Research Institute: ESTHER.
He was the Ach-ash-ve-Rosh---the brother of the grandiose one (Megilliah 11a). He was the Achashverosh who reigned from Hodu (India) to Kush (Ethiopia)- over the entire world.
Madness! But we still don't see it. But we have yet to look. In fact, we consider it "normal" - the way things are. The idea, -the delusion-, that one is "better" than the other, or the very idea that we can be compared. Can we say that an adult is better than a child, or one persons G-d given talents should be compared to anothers? It's like comparing two colors or two fruits: Blue is better than Beige? Plums better than Pears?
But in our distance from Hashem, in our falling apart from Him, we feel an inner vacuum , loss of true self. So the inner question "Who am I"? is answered: "I'm better than he is" or "I'm not like that." And we never stop to wonder how out of touch we are if we think and espouse insainity like that. Now Haman, y"m (his name should be erased) was a nothing, a real nobody. "So was Hitler", y"m. He had been a village barber and a bathhouse attendant (Megillah 16a). But, overinflated by ACH-ash ve-ROSH to grandiose proportions, he tried to ally his feelings of no-self.
The "Haman" of the soul comes from the vacuum - the realm of existence "vacated" by G-d. So whenever we enter the Vacuum, we feel like nothing and feel compelled to compensate by aggrandizing ourselves. And some of the things we fill the inner vacuum with is vacarious pride by "bowing to Haman", by idolizing the misperceived "betterness" from someone else's self. (Likutey Halakhot, Tefillin 6:23)
So ACH-ash-ve-ROSH's airs are all-permeating. He reigns not only from India to Ethiopia, but from India the majestic, to Kush, the lowly. Because when we "live" in Hodu, we are externally "Better" by virtue of our talents and possessions. And when we "live" in Kush, we are externally "lesser" by virtue of our lack of talent or processions. Yet, whereever we "live", we are unequalled, by virtue of simply being our very own selves. And to see one another as "better" or "lesser" is insanity and a negation of our own selves. (likutey Halakhot, Orlah 5:16).
But to let go of this madness and leave the vacuum, we need a "Mordechai the Tzaddik" to show us the way. Because Mordechai the Tzaddik personified greatness, not an external greatness, but a greatness which stemmed from humble self. Since he knew the secret of true humility, he was not compelled to aggrandize himself (Rabbi Nachman's Wisdom #140). And he shows us how to let Hashem in, leave the vacuum and find our true selves.
Then we have no need to compare ourselves with others. We are even humbled before our own selves (Likuty Moharan I, 14:5 ibid 79). Because we then know that our self is not ours to compare with anothers. It is our essence, our Eternal Spark, our G-dly self (ibid 22:5; see Crossing The Narrow Bridge, chap. 17). So on Purim we exchange courses of food with one another to show that we are all equal. To those who have nothing we also give so that they too should know they are equal.
We put on masks and dress out of character, and drink so as the true self can arise and we can ascend to the greatest of heights on Purim. We don't put on airs. We truly can be our true selves. Also, we know that if we want to have a kosher Pesach (Passover), we have to have a fraileka Purim (happy Purim). A segulah for completing the counting the omer is to dance and clap our hands in unrestricted joy on Purim.
To all a Gut Shabbos and joyful and safe Purim. Remember everyone has to hear krias haTorah (this weeks Torah reading in synogogue), this Shabbos its a mitzvah deorisah (a biblical obligation).
From Reb Nati and family and all the Jews in the holy city of Eli.
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