by Reb Nati at Mystical Paths
Suffering makes a man aware of human frailty and transience. 39 is the number of m'laachot forbidden on Shabbos and what we are to fill the week with. This is a man's avodah in this world, not the nine to five distraction that has been taught in the west, which is no more than the slavery of Egypt.
Lamnaztecha l'ydusun, Mismor l'Dovid: Tehillim (Psalm) 39
This is a psalm to be given to the leader of the levitical choir; also the name of an instrument. Midrash says this refers to דתות decrees which have befallen Israel Rashi.
"I said, I will guard my ways from sinning with my tongue; I will guard my mouth with a muzzle, even while the wicked one stands before me. I became mute with stillness, I was silent even from good, though my pain was intense. Hot grew my heart within me, in my contemplations blazed a fire; then I spoke out with my tongue: 'let me know, O Hashem, my end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know when I will cease. Behold, like the handbreaths have you made my days, and my lifetime is naught before; all is but total futility all human existence, selah. Only in shadowy darkness make his way does man; it is but futility for which they are in toil; He amasses riches, but he knows not who will harvest them. And now, for what do I hope, O Lord? My longing is to you. From all my transgressions rescue me; a disgrace before the degenerate do not make me! I am mute, I do open my mouth, because it is you who has done it remove from me your plague; from the attack of your hand I am devastated. With rebukes for my inquity you have chastened man, you have worn away like a moth his precious health. But futility is all mankind, selah. Hear my prayer Hashem; to my outcry give ear; to my tears be not mute; for a sojourner am I with you, A Settler Like all my Forefathers. Turn your punishment from me that I may recover my strength, before I depart and I am no more."
We should learn to be silent in the presence of others when we are suffering and not comment, and surely not complain. Rebaynu (Nachman of Breslov) taught that we should only speak all this to Hashem in personal prayer, and that only for one hour a day. The rest of the 23 hours we must be samayach (joyful!). This is especially when we suffer, as we in our pain might slip with a word of complaint, G-d forbid. Cry out and ask when the suffering will end so that even if we must suffer we can know and rejoice in the fact that it will end! Measure me with a micrometer, for if we judge ourselves the heavenly court can't, there is no double jeopardy... Grant me relief if for no other reason but to keep the unbelievers from mocking you! Understand that these sufferings come to remind us that we are only passing through. Every time a man gets comfortable he falls. In our arrogance we presume we are permanent yet death has always exposed this to be a lie. If one chooses to live his live as a SETTLER, a visitor, his awareness to his temporality will help him to abandon his sins and help him to fill his life with Torah. Only then will he be a righteous settler like his forefathers, in the world to come. toldos Aharon.
Please turn your punishment away so that I may have the strength to serve you. radak.
Please do this before I depart as I can only earn merit in this world, for the world to come is only to receive the rewards of the deeds one has done in this earthly life. radak
One should earnestly pray and cry for the ability to devote oneself to Torah and Mitzvos. This is the way of the Tzaddik.
Come cry at Tel Shilo from Rosh Chodesh Nissan until Shavous so we can over turn the decrees. May Hashem help us all. From the very hill where the Mishkan (portable temple) stood for almost 400 years, it's a very holy place to cry and to pray.
Its 45 minutes north of Jerusalem, central bus station gate #4, 3rd level on bus #148 Egged, 10.80 shekels. The drivers Yitzchak, Yossi, and Ofer are friends. Talk about Rabaynu Nachman and they'll know where to drop you. Tell them Reb Nati sent you.
May Hashem help us all.
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
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